Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you. Psalm 37:5 NLT

Daily, I struggle with trusting in God. Especially in seasons of transition where I don’t know why God is asking me to leave my comfort zone and I have no idea where He is taking me, I struggle to trust.

I would be a liar to say I have not sinned in my unbelief. I have not believed that God is consistently trustworthy.

In Genesis 12 the Lord said to Abraham, “Leave your country, your people and your father's household and go to the land I will show you” (verse 1).

Lord, I have left my “father’s house”. I have left the place of comfort. I have left the place that has felt stable. I am journeying with you to the promised land and yet—

I feel the anxiety in my spirit as it seems the wilderness and the transition seems to get harder and harder and—

Where are my eyes?

I know that I become what I behold. I know that I belong to you. I know that you deserve my complete adoration. My heart exposes me. This anxiety is the fruit of my lack of devotion. I have not disciplined my eyes on the rock that is higher than I and so—

I turn.

I repent.

I repent for my unbelief.

Lord, help my unbelief!

Help me believe that you are good, dependable, and trustworthy.

Deliver me from fear.

The Lord is my light and my salvation— so why should I be afraid? Psalm 27:1 NLT

I am afraid because I do not believe that you are my light (John 14:6). I do not believe that you are my salvation.

Help me believe.

Help me believe in resurrection power.

Help me have faith in the pruning process.

Carry me, Jesus. Hold me, Jesus.

Praise God that I know you are interceding on my behalf, you have prayed that my faith would not fail.

I declare my faith will not fail!

In the day of testing, my faith will not fail. In the day of trial, my faith will not fail. When it seems you have left me, my faith will not fail. When I face persecution, tribulation, rejection, and the lies of my own heart stand to offend the promises you have whispered to me over and over again, I declare:

My faith will not fail.

I will hold on to the word of God.

So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you! Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you receive all that he has promised. Hebrews 10:35-36

This is hard and I am afraid but I will not doubt what you say.

Faith is a choice and I choose to believe.